- Author Honey Badger
Forgiveness
Forgiveness
Forgiveness,
One of those things I have heard a
few times from different
people through my life,
Many times I got angry,
cried and ignored what
they were saying to me,
Pushed people away from me,
I was not in the place
to hear about forgiving
myself or them for what they did to me,
Now, in this moment, I am ready to forgive
myself for what happened when I was
11, 19, 23 and 25,
I know that the things that I hold
on to that keeps me stuck in pain, anger
grief, and from living my life,
I forgive myself for not knowing what I
know now, for not leaving, not fighting him,
believing his threat and not telling
everything he did to me,
I forgive myself for not saying any thing
until I was in high school,
I forgive myself for sleeping around,
I was doing the best to cope with
how I was feeling deep inside,
I thought that by going
to a university two hours
away, I could escape the pain that I
felt deep inside,
All I did was stay on
campus over the weekend,
Drank alcohol for the first time,
It's not my fault what they did to me,
It's not my shame,
I forgive myself for
drinking for the first time,
I forgive myself for
drinking when I was 23,
I was not ready to feel my feelings
so I did the only thing I knew to do,
which was drinking alcohol to numb
all of the pain I was feeling,
I forgive myself for
throwing away a year
and half of sobriety
away when I was 25,
It's not my fault what he chose to dome,
I forgive myself for all of the self-harm and
self-hatred I have put myself through.
None of this was my fault,
They choose to commit a crime
and took what I did not offer,
This was their fault.
There shame,
There betrayal
There violent act.
I work every day to take back my life, live my life
and forgive myself.
I am so glad that
I am able to write,
Because writing is the only way,
I know to get the thoughts out
of my head, to tell my truth
and to continue to heal
one day at a time.
Forgiveness is something I work at every single day.

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