
Author Honey Badger
Dissociation
I want to be in my body,
I want my body to be my home,
I want to feel that my body is safe,
I want to be connected to my feelings,
But I was taught at 11, 19, 23, 25
that my body is not a safe for me to be,
I was taught to disconnect from myself,
To float somewhere far away,
That was the only way I could survive
The pain that they caused.
Now as I continue my healing journey,
I want my body back,
I want to be connected to myself,
I want my body to be my home,
I want to feel safe in my body,
The second I start feeling feelings,
I immediately go away,
My eyes get this glassy look,
And my face gets this blank stare,
Once again I am gone
Trying to not feel what I am feeling,
I want my body back,
I want the memories of what they
did to stop,
I want the flashbacks, nightmares to go away,
I want to live my life
I want my body to be my home,
I want to feel safe in my body.

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