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The Flow of Emotions

Emotions come flooding in and knock me to my knees, Tears stream from my eyes, I feel like I am back there again and everything is...

Choose

One can stay frozen in fight, One can stay frozen in flight, One can stay frozen in fear, One can stay frozen in anger, One can stay...

Shine Your Light

In life there are many things that Need light shined on them. In my darkness you shine your light, In my pain you shine your light, When...

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Podcast: Letter to My Reader

Here is a link to my podcast that I just recorded that tells my true story of surviving military sexual trauma....

PTSD

You are the enemy I fight every single day, You are constantly there, I do my best to keep you at bay, I do not know when you are going...

Feeling Unheard

Feeling unheard, Feeling unseen, Feeling disrespected, Was at counseling appointment, Therapist looked at me and told me to Stop writing...

Dissociation

I want to be in my body, I want my body to be my home, I want to feel that my body is safe, I want to be connected to my feelings, But I...

Anger, Rage

Discharged from Military since I developed Post Traumatic Stress from being raped, I hurt my knee doing my job, I tried to get care for...

Chronic Knee Pain

Knee Pain please go away, I cannot take this pain anymore, You make doing my job of damage control That much harder and I have trouble...

Feeling Alone

Feeling alone, Made mistake of trying to reach out to advocate, Was told that she did not care, I was just needing someone to listen,...

Why

Why? It’s too hard to understand Too hard to comprehend Too hard to deal with Flashbacks, nightmares,betrayal, rage, Replayed over and...

Invisible

I am a girl that has experienced hatred from men, Have been told that abuse does Not matter since I am a girl and invisible, Have been...

Forgiveness

Forgiveness Forgiveness, One of those things I have heard a few times from different people through my life, Many times I got angry,...

PTSD and Body Memories

PTSD and Body Memories During medical exam, I get triggered, I am breathing very shallow. Flashbacks come, Heart pounding in my chest, My...

Breakthrough

Thought that I could run away from the pain, Darkness followed me and caused even more pain, Another heinous crime committed against me,...

Pelvic Examination

How I have avoided you, How I do not feel connected to you, How I want nothing to do with you, How I want no one to touch you, This past...

Grief and Rising

Missing the innocent girl, I was Miss the trusting girl I was, I miss the girl who chased her dream to serve her country Thinking that...

Waves

A poem written on November 12, 2007 while on deployment on USS Ronald Reagan Look around and all you see is a huge ship, There are tons...

Betrayal

A poem Written on January 24, 2014 Enlisted to serve my country to chase a dream To be part of something bigger then myself That has the...

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